I have been placed on administrative leave without pay again this week. I know I should be worried, or threaten to kill myself in order to bring attention to the case of disability discrimination I filed against my employer– the Jewish Board– but I’m not. Money is running out fast. Soon there will be no food for my cats. My internet connection may soon go down and the children that I have never adopted could starve, but basically, I’m handling the loss of more than $6,000 in just three months relatively well.
Why did I get suspended again so soon– just after being placed on leave without pay over Thanksgiving week? Because administration at Jewish Board ordered another surprise desk audit last week and I told my boss that if another auditor showed up in my office, that I was going to call the police.
Auditors of course, did not show up for the audit, but I was placed on leave without pay again pending an ‘investigation’ of misconduct.
I learned over Thanksgiving from my sources at the New York State Division of Human Rights that my recent complaint was being addressed by the state and that the governor’s executive office had ordered the respondent– the Jewish Board– to provide a list of audits conducted on all office managers at the Jewish Board over the past year.
In my complaint, I proposed that the Jewish Board was excessively auditing me and that they had accused me of stealing or mismanaging more than $2,000 in petty cash funds. (Fortunately, I had e-mails to support the accusations of theft.)
Ever since filing my complaint of harassment and discrimination, my employer, the Jewish Board and its President and CEO, Paul Levine, have audited me constantly. My job at the Youth Counseling League (YCL) includes oversight of all cash flow and I’ve been paranoid during these investigations because I feel they are simply trying to find something– anything– to bring me down. Fortunately, up until now, the audits have gone well, but they will not stop and they have driven me almost mad.
I know the harassment may sound easy to avoid– just do the audits and carry-on with my job. Well, it hasn’t been that easy. During the course of the investigation and desk audits, everything that not only I do, but the job responsibilities of those of whom I supervise have been under close scrutiny by management. Staff like Susan Bear, Susan Wiviott and Maria Barreto hounded me constantly about ‘things that were not being done right’. It has been a constant nightmare at work since first filing my complaint. If I had to do it all over again, I never would have made a request for reasonable accommodation with the New York State Division of Human Rights for my disability of schizophrenia. In my opinion, the state should save tax dollars and shut the office down– they are nothing but paper pushers and pussies when it comes to defending human rights of the disabled.
I simply should have killed myself and not filed a complaint. I wouldn’t have all these worries to deal with over the holidays. The state obviously has no jurisdiction over such institutions as the Jewish Board. Paul Levine reminds me of the Illinois Governor who thought he could sell a senate seat to the highest bidder. Who knew that I lived on the West Bank and not America? I wish someone would have said something before I filed this complaint….
So why do I bother wasting space on my blog whining all the time like the Jews at the Jewish Board? I don’t know– it’s a job I suppose– something to keep me busy and thoughts of suicide at bay.
As is referenced on my initial complaint (copy available here:
I was being overwhelmed at work and needed for my employer to back-off with so many unreasonable demands– demands that even the sane could not tolerate. And now, somehow, this is all my fault again– for not being a team player– for remaining anti-social with my bosses, for being, simply, one with schizophrenia.
I no longer am angry at my employer. It is their job to paralyze, electrocute and almost kill the psychotic with toxic medications, funded with federal tax dollars. My frustration is now tuned to the State of New York– the Empire State– the territory. Would it be fair to ask blind Governor Patterson to read the complaint I filed with his office– no– that would be unreasonable of me. It’s a shame that there are not dedicated staff, like me, working for the office of the New York State Division of Human Rights who could read for the Governor, despite my disability.