Ivory Cheeks

Latinjock69 abandoned his AOL handle and logged out of the nycm4mnow chatroom forever. Most original AOL members have moved onto other service providers. AOL chatrooms are outdated like I-Pod shuffles. Many screen names died in the arms of the digital revolution. Some, although no longer active, live on, like spam. Screen names are an important [...]

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One Got Laid in the Coo Coo’s Nest

 
I kept Tony Ingle’s number on a post-it note inside my address book for a long time before deciding to crumple it up and toss it in the trash. The lure of his deep, seductive tone called to me from that square piece of self-adhesive paper– like an imaginary voice in my head.
Tony wore a [...]

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Chill

 
I started writing Chill in prison. He was locked away in Attica, serving 15 years to life for murder with a stick at a pool hall in East New York. Fresh out of the Marines and back on the streets of
Brooklyn, the dishonorably discharged veteran took his frustrations out on a Latino from the [...]

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Pussy Control

Black sissies and heterosexual sistas have always envied my ability to seduce homeboys into long-term relationships. Even with my grey hairs, men don’t just have sex with me and rush out the door– leaving nothing but used condoms behind. They always come back for more.A few years ago, while enjoying my freedom as a single [...]

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Racing Thoughts

Photo by: Shawn L. Smith (1996)
Emerald City Photography
I wandered the streets of New York City in agony. The pain was unfathomable– not like a jab with a knife in the gut–far worse. The sadness within was unimaginable. There were no external wounds, but the pain was there– stabbing at every nerve in my body. It [...]

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Come On Aileen

 
My virginity was taken by Aileen Querry. She asked me to ask her to our high school Christmas dance. All my friends had dates to the annual gala. I wanted to go to the dance too. I loved music and dancing. The thought of dancing somewhere other than in my bedroom thrilled me. I couldn’t wait [...]

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Crow’s Foot

An evergreen mountain laurel known as ‘crow’s foot’ by many grows in the forest behind my childhood home. I used it to decorate the support beams of the front porch at Christmas. My mother loved it–such a gay child I was– all that interior-design, creative ability bursting at my seams. I couldn’t help myself. It [...]

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New Daddy

Mom didn’t ask us if she could marry Frank. She said, “I do,” to save her life. I don’t blame her. I’m glad she got out of that mess. She didn’t even invite us to the wedding.
“When I was pregnant with you, your dad tried to kill you. He punched me in the stomach. You [...]

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Fat Love

Don’t waste time going to Bed, Bath & Beyond to shop for ice cream makers. The fancy machines that have replaced the need for crushed ice and rock salt are out of stock.Bradley loves both ‘ice’ and ice cream. I thought it would be nice to supplement the Zales bracelet he’s getting this year with [...]

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